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Friday, January 31, 2014

Why not doing art these months

I stopped doing new artwork for the last couple of months. Why? It isn't because the art is not as important to me as before,no, it is mostly because a few changes appear in my life. My regular job, involving keep managing an small Association in Bulgaria, dealing with mentally ill people,take now all my time.
Considering myself responsible person, I try to develop its capacity, to build a good working team, and provide a excellent services,for people who need it.
Keeping an association, require a lot of energy,even more then I have expected . In Bulgaria a lot of bad things happens. Situation is terrible not only for ill people,but to all others,poverty,political corruption,negative attitude ,depression. So all this made my job even more difficult,challenging. I have all time consider myself strong person with strong principles, but I always question myself a lot. "Did I do the best?" is a question that appear in my mind often.
Never satisfied fully of what I did.

I am 35 years old. Turning myself behind, I see clearly what I was,what I am now.....why I did what I did. In matter of truth I have always been kind of outsider.
Never fully assimilated by the society, but still accommodating to in somehow,in some way. One of the things that mostly disturbed me was the feeling been alone in and around a lot of people,friends and families. Now, I just get used to it,doesn't hurt anymore. You now,when time pass, a lot of things just stop hurting you.

One of the changes that happens lately was the my possibility to travel around Europe. I am a poor woman living in a poor country, so obviously my travel options came from European Union grant I have received last year. Being as always responsible, I try to manage the project work professional ( overwhelming myself with new material to cover , new duties and a lot new things to learn). For me it is contradictive field....I will tell you later why.

Seeing how things really are in Europe, in real, testing the countries myself ...is more then great option. Not just sitting in the box, at my home town, thinking  that I know how things really are. Europe itself is a great source of inspiration now ( maybe other places too, i just haven,t reach them still). But the challenging part comes with my struggle to create something for people who suffer mental disease in Bulgaria. And then I meet the hard time.......

Saturday, February 16, 2013

Sunday, January 6, 2013

Maybe I want to talk?!!!

Here two of my latest artworks " Cover the Empty" and " For the lost". "Cover the Empty" it is more like painting experiment.Over the photo of me I used a lot of painting with Photoshop Brushes.The truth is that I am not vary pleased with the final result - I think it is a lot static, still look vary naive - but at least it is experiment:) Idea about the hair is from long,I love to work over the hair about covering things and make it appear in not vary usual way,  working on hair like this,make the image look more " surreal".Not so realistic,and that is my aim,really.

"For the lost" it is much more personal work,target a particular group of people from the society,who obviously close their eyes for truth ,get afraid of truth. In their life they prefer stay blind ,even their blindness is not real...Their living in compete darkness is initiated from themselves.I know I have many interpret ions of this theme,some not so successful ,some more successful.....


For the lost

For those who never win....
....never feel,never find.....
For those failed....and disturbed....
...lost and forgotten ....Forever rejected....
....forever blind...
...forever in darkness...
For those who pray....
But noone hear their prayers....
For those who never realize...never understand...unable to see who they are...For those who life has only one side - Dark one....Only one stairs,those which lead down,always down....forever down.....



                                                                Cover the empty...

For the lost


Thursday, December 22, 2011

Well,I now in Holiday.More then a week rest.Hopefully i will get some more time doing some Artworks.Last months was quite limited from art point of view. As my regular job is something I love as much as I love doing art,its quite difficult to share the time.
In some obvious reason last months I get more and more unsatisfied by my final artworks I made some decisions regarding the  process how I work.I have decided to spend not less then 24 hours on an image.This because when i look back i see my works somehow unfinished and half way done.I don,t know way...its always a process I think. Its now seems to me endless,cause i usually spend not more the 3 or 4 hours on a single image.

Otherwise I always find some time to look and appreciate what other artists do and its real great people out there.I do appreciate all kind of art from Photography to Painting ,from all time.

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Originally uploaded by Teodoratan

...Identical hours...


...Identical hours...
Originally uploaded by Teodoratan

...Addition...


...Addition...
Originally uploaded by Teodoratan

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Originally uploaded by Teodoratan

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

A writing

Recently I have posted on this blog ,only images from my flickr photostream.Actually I did,t write.
Its a long story why I didn,t write. I even can,t remember the last blog post I have write something.
Even I have find blog sharing vary exiting and in many ways private.
Now, when I really consider trying to get back to produce art images more intensely then last several months I am thinking to get back to writing / maybe more for my own clarifying my thoughts.

My last artwork  B.E M.i.s.s.i.n.g .its exactly the way I felt last months.Whats life offers me was the challenge to feel myself like I do not exist. In an inner ,not obvious way.Well,after those period things get to a different direction, I am reborn.
Its hard to say if it was difficult period, one thing I know it was necessary. I had to lost in order to be free,as free as possible....Do you know what I mean? Of course if someone can really be Free.Freedom has some kind of a lie in itself. 
Well, now listening one of the most inspiring sounds ever lustmord  and thinking things over.
Some fresh ideas come to me and hopefully to connect and keep them.
Take care.





Thursday, December 23, 2010

..Features in Deviant Art

I have to Thank to wonderfull Artists in Deviant Art, who feature my works. This is my dear Friend and  Romanian Artist Dan Neamu and Melanie Rogers.